Job Update

Cameron has finally heard back from the parks dept here in WA!! They've excepted his application and he's scheduled for his physical and psychological examines on the 30th of this month. The fitness part of it includes a mile and a half run, push ups, sit up, 300 meter sprint, vertical jump and agility run. That seems like an awful lot for just a park ranger position but apparently they want him in pretty good physical shape. He did a test run of all these events last weekend and past them all, but he's definitely not in the same shape he use to be. And lets be honest, I think that he actually gained a few sympathy pounds this last time (ITS ABOUT TIME!). I'm not quite sure what all the psychological examine includes, but lets hope he's psychologically sound. After all this is the polygraph test which is the most common to fail probably because they lied on the application about not being involved in criminal activities. All in all I think he has a great chance of getting this job. It is the state, lets keep that in mind, so it could take months or years for that matter for this whole process! Maybe I exaggerated a bit.

Pumpkin Patching

I appologize for the last post being so down hearted, we just had a couple of rough days, nothing that couldn't be over come.

Friday we took the girls to a pumpkin patch in Olympia with some friends. It was SO much fun. Let me paint the picture for you. It was the four of us, my friend and her 3 kids, 2 of her friends with their 2 boys and anothers 3 girls. The total count here is 6 kids ages 4 and under and 4 babies 5 months and under. Luckily there was an adult for every child that could walk and we only lost one kid the entire afternoon. She was the oldest child so it wasn't REALLY scary, but still. She wandered off into one of the three pumpkin patches and we couldn't find her for about 15 mins, but all turned out okay.

The kids got to feed goats, chickens, a pig, and ride horses :) Here is a picture of the horses that they were allowed to ride.

The goats were really hungry, like goats usually are, but if the kids weren't careful they would grab the brown paper bags that the food was in and eat the food AND the bag! Greedy goats! One of the boys got his bag stolen by these theifs but luckily Cameron was there to save the day! He snatched the bag out of the goats mouth and were all the kids hero.

So the whole point of going to the pumpkin patch was to pick out a pumpkin, right? Wrong. We walked around looking for a cute little one that Breanne could walk out with, but when we found the right one and tried to hand it to her she refused to touch it! I did my best to wipe the dirt and mud off the pumpkin but she was convinced that she would get her hands dirty. This is not my fault as many of you might believe. I've tried my best to make sure she's not a prissy little girl and worry about dirt and such, but obviously it hasn't worked. Needless to say we didn't get pumpkins that day, but it's still early. The best part is, though, that we had our first family portrait taken as a family of four.

There are a ton of pumpkin patches around here so we're thinking that we'll hit one every weekend until halloween! They're free, why not?

Venting and other thoughts

A Warning to those who might read this: Personal thoughts, Venting frustration

A few thoughts have been running through my head the last week or so. I don't know if it's the experience of being a new mom of two or if this is normal or maybe this is just the way things are going to be, but lately I've felt like I'm not cut out for this whole mom thing. Having just one is simple and I stick to my previous views that you're not truly a parent until you have at least two kids. I know it's only been about three weeks, but they have been a stressful three weeks. Breanne has become VERY whiny. She's started to throw more tantrums then usual and I know that it's probably just jealousy because I have to pay a lot more attention to Kaitlyn right now, but when Kaitlyn has been screaming constantly every time she's awake and deciding not to sleep for more then an hour at a time at night I'm tired and my patience is low. Because of this and the fact that Kaitlyn wants to eat ALL the TIME I quit breastfeeding. The guilt of that has been enough in itself and it seems that everyone I tell has a disappointed tone in their voice like I failed as a mother. If I could go back to breastfeeding I would, but not because I miss it. I'd go back just so I'd feel like a good mom. I'm sure I'm hormonal still, but all of these emotions are getting the best of me and I'm starting to feel bad for Breanne. I was irritable when I was pregnant and I was looking forward to Kaitlyn's birth because I thought that my mood would improve, but sadly to say it has not. It's probably gotten worse. I think of all the people I know who have kids and are stay at home moms. They do it so well and they seem like such happy, perfect moms. I love my kids, don't get me wrong, but I don't know if this comes as naturally to me as it should. What made me think I could raise children? Kids have never liked me and personally, I've never really liked them. These are just random firings of my frazzled brain. I'll end this posting with a cute story.

A few days ago I put Kaitlyn on the couch while I did something in the kitchen. She started to cry and I finished what I was doing in the kitchen, quickly, and started back to the couch. As I turned around the crying died down a bit and around the corner came Breanne holding her little sister! She was doing really well, not squishing her or holding her by her neck. She was holding her against her chest very carefully. However cute that was we had a nice talk about not picking up baby Katie (that's what Bre calls her) without mommy or daddy. She really does want to help. She always goes straight for the pacifier (or ball as she calls it) when she starts to fuss and tries to stick it in her mouth. Kaitlyn is slowly warming up to the pacifier. Key word, SLOWLY. She also likes to help feed her every once in awhile. Despite all the frustrations there's always some shining moments that will make you smile.

Oh, and Breanne got her Halloween costume and LOVES to put it on and "fly around".